Sunday, December 19, 2010

Tis The Season

It's that beautiful time of year again! The halls are decked, the bells ring, and the angles sing, for the coming of our New Born King!
Merry Christmas!!!
I know for sure you have all heard the same old thing year after year! About the REAL meaning of Christmas!
Well I guess it's kind of become something different to everyone. But it ultimately is read  in the name of the holiday.... CHRISTmas! :) soooo as the bumper sticker says; "Keep the CHRIST in Christmas!"
And remember to prepare you hearts for the coming of Our King and Lord Jesus Christ! :)


 

Friday, December 17, 2010

God Bless the Broken Road

I don't get it guys!
People in general are soooo depressing! And I just ask WHY!? Why on earth are you depressed all the time?! I mean of course EVERYONE has their moments where things get down... even me, and THATS sayin somethin! ;)

I can understand tragedies happen, people get hurt, and life just can seem like an acorn calf!... but things can and WILL look up if you let them.

GOD is watching over ALLL of you, weather you chose to believe it or not! The Big Man will never give you more than you can handle...! We all have our own level of suffering to endure, but, God Bless the Broken Road! RIGHT!? Good can come from a tragic situation!

I have a friend who had a theory going for a while.
I would say "its all good Ryan...", Ryan would reply "Nah Kat, its not all good, it never is! As soon as something good happens, it all falls apart, and its terrible again. So no, its not 'all good'... 'it goes'!"
 hmm "It goes"
Isn't that interesting!? Because I mean the same could be said in opposite... "its all terrible", "no its not, things always begin to look up".
Maybe... But, I just know that it is what YOU make it, sooo MAKE it all good!!!

Life is an AMAZING opportunity we are all given... and I don't know about Ya'll, but I was only given one... and I'm going to LIVE it to the fullest, THE RIGHT WAY! MY life is too short to sit around as a lame horse crying about the littlest things! OR even the big things, because I KNOW that things can hurt, and leave a scare, and mark your heart for the rest of your life... but what are you gonna let come from those scares? The sufferings...? or the blessing it could bring...? It all depends on what YOU decide to dwell on.

I tell people these things, and they always say to me "well Kat you haven't experienced heart ache!"... Oh but I have, and I see the beauty all this suffering has brought to my life. And I see JUST how much God has blessed the broken road.
I didn't really know my dad, I lost him when I was 5 years old, When I was 9,my big brother was in an accident came out brain damaged, and was never the same again. My Mom was taken from me by cancer when I was 12. I practically raised my baby brother and sister, then I was kept from seeing them for 6 years. Just a month ago, my baby brother was killed by a car.

I sometimes feel as though, my whole family was taken from me.... But... No, they will always be with me, and I still have a WHOLE bunch of family and friends here to help me, and God watching over me, guiding me through my life! And good has come from all my suffering!

Sooo look at it this way...

God Blessed the Broken Road that led me straight to you... Its time to live life guys :)

Tuesday, December 7, 2010

What hurts the Most

Riverside County coroner's officials this morning identified a 14-year-old boy who died last night when he was struck by a car while walking along a street in the Jurupa area.
Ian James Griott of Riverside was walking on Limonite Avenue about 80 feet east of Camino Real about 7:16 p.m. when he was struck, according to the Riverside County coroner's office. He died about 7:24 p.m.
The California Highway Patrol is investigating the death.
"I was at the scene just moments after it happened. I saw him laying in the street and didn't know that he had died until the Sherriff Deputy covered him with a white sheet. I was just driving to the store when I saw this, and I talked to some of the witnesses. They told me that they saw the boy get struck by a small sized car, then was thrown into the air. On his way down he was struck by a SUV that was behind the smaller car. The smaller car fled the scene while the SUV pulled over to help the boy. Very sad. there is a shopping center and 7-11 across the street, maybe that's where he was going."

"He was on his way to see his girlfriend and walked out into traffic was struck by a car, and was killed instantly."


When someone dies, there is a terrifying feeling that enters you. Weather you knew that person or not, you still feel this deep shutter of sadness over whelming your body and your heart. Death is known to be a sad thing, because of the loss that comes with the death of a loved one. And that is completely true, death is a sad thing to endure. Everyone will miss that person who has left us.
But then I wonder to myself... "is that selfish of me?"... Because if you think bout it, that person, could be up in heaven with Our Lord, Our Father, who created us. We ALL yearn to be with Him, even if you don't feel like it, YOU DO. Thats how we were created, to love Him and to be with Him. So when a person leaves his earthly life down here with us, he is really possibly journeying to his ETERNAL life with our Father, who we all love! So I SHOULD be happy for that someone who has died, because he has a chance to meet God! To be eternally happy, carefree, and pure in heaven with Father! 

But of course, I KNOW, that doesn't make the tears or pain any better. But knowing in my heart that He is in a better place, helps, a little bit, right? Maybe, just maybe. It hurts though, you know? It's this unfathomable pain that you cannot possibly explain that just consumes all your thoughts your dreams, and your reality. It sometimes makes your mind unreal, and scattered, in shock. It makes you want to cling to and hold dear to EVERYTHING and EVERYONE you know! But it hurts, and thats why you grab hold to the things you know will hold firm... but then again.... you thought that person you loved would hold firm too, thats why you didn't worry before... but now you do.

See, well, I guess I should tell you the reason for all of this.

Ian James Griott of Riverside, was my little brother.
I had practically raised my baby brother for the first 8 years of his life. Until my mom, Carrie, passed away, and then I was not able to see my little brother Ian, or my little sister Erin. 6 years had gone past and I was only talking on the phone as an acquaintance to him, because he never saw me. He was turning into a young man, and I wasn't there to see it happen. And one day there was an article in the paper two days later, much like the one above. And it was confirmed that my Little brother, who wasn't so little anymore, was gone. And I didn't even know him. I think thats what hurts the most, that I loved him so much, but never had the opportunity to to know him. 

When people ask me if Im ok, I tell them I am... because thats what I feel I'm suppose to say... but I guess thats a lie because, I'm not doing ok.... I will make it out ok I guess... I wish I could tell you the way I feel... I cant tell you what it really is, I can only explain what it feels like... and right now, it feels like I'm being choked at the wind pipe. It feels like a constant wet face, when Im alone. A serious head ache... from the crying... shaking from, the sadness... and sore stomach from the nerves... feeling as if, I have nothing to do... or, not KNOWING what to do! I don't know why it feels this way, but it does! All the time. And I put on a good face, for the crowd which can be easy and ok...but when the silence hits me, it hits hard, and then everything falls apart.

 Ian had just turned 14 on November 5th... and was killed on Nov. 12... The last time I saw Ian my baby brother, he was 8... and I DONT even really know what he would look like now... 

I KNOW though, that by the Grace of God, I will be ok, my family will be ok, and God will bless the broken road. I KNOW He WILL!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Love :)

:) <3

"Opposites attract..."


 “To be your friend was all I ever wanted; to be your lover was all I ever dreamed.”


"I found you, my missing puzzle piece."


"Hearts are like magnets......have you found your positive?"





Wednesday, November 10, 2010

My Beautiful Sister

So I have 5 beautiful sisters! I love them each so much! And even though we have our little quarrels, arguments, or disagreements, we still have the understanding that we love each other no matter what! :) I love my sisters for that! I love all the times we spend together, and wonderful moments of just happiness! I will always be here for my sisters! And I know they will always be there for me! :) Here are some pictures of one of my beautiful sisters! Meet Caitlin! :)









Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Somethin To Live For...

Love is a great thing! Wouldn't you say!? I think it is! What an amazingly beautiful gift God has blessed all of us with! The gift of LOVE! I think its one of those things that cannot justly be expressed! Love is soooo many things!!!! :D

Love comes in sooooo many different forms, some of which I have yet to experience in my life time. But I DO love the people God has so graciously surrounded me with! I love my family, friends, and My God! They are all so amazing!
I have realized that there is one thing that is EXTREMELY important when it comes to love. SHOWING IT! I don't just mean a hug or a kiss or kind words, all of which are very very important, and VERY much needed. But I'm talking about acting like you love that person. Sometimes there are things that seem hard to say, but NEED to be said! And I think that when there is something that has to be said to someone I love, if I love them enough, I will tell them, and try to help them over come the situation! Because a TRUE friend will always be there for you, even when it gets hard. We all have problems, and sometimes we may not even notice them. That is what your friends and family are for, they are there to help you, even if it is uncomfortable to say. But in the end it will be the better thing to have done!

What about "TRUE LOVE", the one person God created you to be with the rest of your life?! The other half of your heart, your missing puzzle piece, your spouse, the man/woman of your dreams! Have you ever thought about that other person? Or maybe you have already found them, and you are spending your whole life together! ;) And I am happy for all of you who have found Your "Soul Mate"! That is another form of love that is sadly uncommonly pure. There are so many marriages that are corrupted by our progressive world. Divorce is such a common thing. And in our society, we are told to just walk away from our problems instead of working them out. The love between a Man and a Woman is meant to be purely sacrificial, and gracious! But now days, its all about selfish gain! "Whats in it for me? What can I gain from this?". Its so sad really! When I find that ONE Man, My Cowboy, God created me to be with, I pray, and KNOW that we will both strive our hardest to make our love a sacrificial one. Because only then, will my husband and I have a VERY fruitful relationship in Christ. I constantly pray for all of those who don't know what their relationship should be based on... Sacrificial Christ's Love!!! :D 

God is love! Thats how we were created you know? Out of Love, thats WHY God blessed us all with the gift of life, because he loved you and me. That is another kind of love! The love between God and his Children! And what a beautiful relationship it is!!! Some people ask, "What is the reason for living? Why are we here? What is my purpose in life?". And sadly, some people honestly don't know the reason, and never find it out! And this really does make me sad, because I could NEVER imagine living my life, without knowing my purpose in it. God doesn't just create people for no reason just for the FUN of it. He has a reason, and his reason is love! Some of you may not believe that there is a god who created any of us. Well then let me ask you this. What is your reason for living if you were not created to serve, love, and be loved!? Because, lemme tell you, thats why EVERY SINGLE human being on the planet was created for. So You reason is to serve your Creator! This is something you will have to experience for yourself! He loves you and is always welcoming you into his loving arms!

So if you were to ask me what I live for... I would tell you....
I live for LOVE!!! I live to Love God, by serving him! And by serving him, I will serve others, and be Christ's Light to the world! I live to love YOU, My LORD, and all those around me, because I am called as a Catholic Christian to serve God, and all his creation! 

I live to LOVE... and thats somthing to live for!!! :D <3
What do YOU life for!? :)





Saturday, October 2, 2010

Dad's Big White #2 Baby! ;

This is a little memory I wrote for school a while back! ;) I just thought I would share it with all of you! ;)
I remember it; I remember Dad's big white 1977 Chevy truck. With a red bed which carried our motorcycles, giant bright headlights and door handles to high for one so little as me to reach. Dad helps me into the middle seat, and with all of us buckled, Dad sat on  my left and my big bro Joe my right. The sound of the large chevy engine starts up and we pull away. Joe and I eat our church donuts while Dad held on to the red steering wheel spinner. Sitting in the red and white middle seat, I was the one who got to change the radio stations to some good old classic rock. Dad sings in his deep voice with his thick hungarian accent. With the wind blowing my soft blonde hair wildly, I look up at him and admire the sound of his voice, the voice I thought I would never forget. I reach into the red glove compartment and pull out the tattoo zebra gum, a piece for Dad and one for Joe too. Barley tall enough to see over the dash board, I struggle to see the yellow line fly by. The smell of that chevy truck and Dad's cologne left me as my Dad easily lifted me up and out of the truck, and set me on the cold red tail gate. #2 Baby, that was her name, the name of the big white truck, that's what Dad said. He said it was cuz I was #1. I was his #1 Baby. I miss that old #2 Baby, the big guy who drove it and the voice I thought I would never forget.
:)

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

The Boys of Fall!!! <3

I love country music SOOOO MUCH! Country musicians sing about so much that I can love, laugh, and sing along to! Country music is just from the heart, true reality, love, family, friend, hardships... God, and isn't that what life's all about? So I just love country because it is all about the good stuff! And I can relate (or try) to almost every good country song! :)










There is this one song, that I particularly LOOVVVEEEEE a LOT!... This song is about high school football, and how it makes boys feel when they play. And It's just a beautiful thing to me, the feeling of joy, love, and maybe even pain, that is expressed in this song! And I honestly didn't know JUST how much it meant for every guy who was playing on that field, and how it felt (well understandably so, because I have never played, BOYS high school football :P). I never thought that football would help boys grow into men. I just think that playing on your high school football team is soooo cool, and it becomes so much more than just a game! Because on that field those boys have something that will always be there to back them up the rest of their life. They have a sort of, Brotherhood, I guess you could say. They have friends there, that will be like no others! They learn respect, passion, hard work, and honor! What a great privilege to be able to experience it all! They are almost like supper stars who get to feel the game day jitters, and the passion, and excitement... well I don't need to explain it to all you guys who, play, or have played on your high school team, cuz you already know that feeling, the one you will remember the rest of your life. :)

Even if you don't like country, just listen to it! Such a GOOD song! The music video is AMAZING! I just love it! ;) <3
So here ya go,
 "The Boys of Fall" by Kenny Chesney

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Some of My Favorite Things! ;)




I was working on some photography stuff, and I was thinking that it would be cool to get some more practice..... BUTTTT then I got distracted and went on FaceBoook, THEN I had to go feed the animals, and then I started cleaning my room, and going trough all my stuff, and soon I started thinking about my blog, and then I decided to blog about SOME of my favorite things!!!I never did REALLY practice my photography OR finish cleaning my room... :p, ANYWHO, I put together some of my favorite things and took pictures of them. :)......

#1: Anuenue Akua... Thats the name of my lovely iPod, who has been so good to me! I lOVE IT
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#2: My rosary! This is my favorite rosary in the WHOLE entire world! My big sis gave it to me as a confirmation present! I love it so much, I keep it in a safe little bag, and never actually pray with it, because I dont want anything to happen to it! ;) haha silly, i know!

#3: My Savior Jesus Christ! Why yes, He is my Favorite person to have ever entered my life! :) I love him so! ;)

#4: This bandana! I so so so badly want this bandana... but sadly its not mine, but I DO love it!

#5:My Sweet Godmother, Aunty Ree, gave me these earrings for my 18th birthday! They are my favorite pair! :D I mean LOOK AT THEM! they go with JUST about anything!

#6: Red Pens!!! I love writing with red pens, because the ball point tip glides on the piece of paper so sweetly, that it makes writing so beautifully pleasant! ;) haha Red pens are my FAV!

#7: My smiley face! This is my signature ..... =P only a lil different! :)

#8: MY Cowboy is my favorite cowboy EVER in the history of FOREVER!!!! <3

#9: Warheads are some of THEE best candy ever created! And although they are so sour I get soars in my mouth, I cannot resist to eat them anyways!

#10: This is my ALLLL TIME favorite bracelet! My Mom & Pops gave this to me on my Confirmation day! And they had it customized, so that it has my fav medals on it! <3

#11: These are my purity rings! They are a sign, and promise, that I will remain pure for my future husband, and our marriage! I wear them all the time, they are my Fav rings! ;)

#12: Meet my new BEST FRIEND! haha I just found this candle and realized how delicious it smells! My absolute favorite smelling candle!

#13: My vanilla cookie lip gloss is sooooo amazingly good smelling!!!! I love the smell so much, that I stopped using it, cuz I want to have this special smell FOREVER! haha I dont want it to run out!!!!

#14: This is my ABSOLUTE favorite perfume!.... except we have a little problem, its not mine :( Its my Older sister's!!! and this makes me sad cuz I love it sooooo much!... but dont worry, she lets me use it! ;) haha

#15: this is my favorite picture holder! its so cute, AND you dont have to have a specific size photo, ANYTHING will fit! ;)

#16:My favorite flowers are Black Eyed Susans!!! and even though these ones are dried out, I love them JUST the same! <3

#17: This is my favorite color, and nail polish! well it might be my fav nail polish, because its my favorite color! :) but this should count as two, because I love the color, and nail polish!
And LAST, but not LEAST

#18: MY COW HAT!!!!!! I love love love love LOOOVVVEEEEEE My cow hat!!! This is my absolute favorite hat!!!! ;) it truly expresses my Cowgirl Soul! ;)
So because I am a procrastinator you got this lovely post! That is THEEEEEE END of "my favorite things" tune in for the next time I get distracted... ;) <3

Thursday, September 16, 2010

The Farm Life!


I mentioned in one of my previous posts that we have a lot of animals, and that is true. I guess you could say we live on a "little Farm" compared to most people. Between the donkey's braying, and the rooster crowing at dawn, we have about 69 animals on our property... well thats if I counted right, and I think I did :) Anywho, we have a LOT of animals, and we all take turns caring for this collection of animals. So there is a fair amount of work to be done around here. And there are times where it can get a little over whelming, but thats what you get when you do what we do. And I don't mind the work at all. I mean of course I have my days where I really don't want to wake up at 5:00 (IN THE MORNING) to milk the cow! I mean who doesn't?!

But, I will be the first to say that I am a Cowgirl at heart. I think I even kinda have this little pride thing going on... I just take so much pride in wearing my cow-hat, and getting calloused hands from working outside (thats weird, I know)! I just LOVE being able to milk my own milk, gather my own eggs in the morning, or pick the tomatoes for my salad. There is just something about the country life that is like no other! The work ethic that comes with having a farm is just so beautiful to me. You become a very disciplined person, with a lot of responsibilities. And it really sets you on the right beginning to the path of life. The sense of accomplishment, that comes from getting dirty, cutting your finger, or just doing dog-gone hard work, is so incredibly amazing!!!

I do hope to find MY good ol Cowboy, God created me to be with, and start my own "ranch" someday. But we will see what God has planed for this Cowgirl!!!

Now I know that not EVERYONE can be a cowgirl, or cowboy, and thats fine, I respect that. But IIII will keep on doing what I love, and COWGIRL-IT-UP till the break of day!!! :D































Monday, September 13, 2010

A Passionate Talent

We all have our talents, and God given gifts right? Even if you don't see them or even realize what they might be, you have them.
Well... one of the talents God has so wonderfully blessed me with is photography! When I was little I always loved taking pictures, and as I got older, I thought it would be cool to get my own camera. And when I did, I just took pictures of EVERYTHING. Soon my family and I started to realize that these were actually pretty good pictures. So I took more and more. And now I realize that its really what I want to do when I "grow up"!

My local Community Collage has a great photography program, so I plan on enrolling there to work on Portrait photography. I just love taking pictures of just about everything, but especially people. I want to do weddings, graduations, babies, engagements, family shoots, and whatever else. I just think that I could truly catch those moments that people want in their memories. Yes a photo is worth a thousand words, but its also worth a million memories. When I take a picture I look back at it and remember what I was thinking when I took it, who I was with, and the thoughts that where going through my head. When a family goes to take their "family pictures", they expect to make memories that will last them a lifetime. As their photographer, I have to catch those special moments. And I sure love doing it!!! :)
Thats what my Passionate Talent is.... Photography!









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